Hello Smiths,
My heart is full of pain for you for losing your most precious daughter yesterday. I have 2 sons and thank God each day for their health. I pray you find forgiveness in your heart for her loss and embrace the joy of her memory. When I lost someone very close to me, I was mad a God for not answering my prayers of a healing miracle. It took many years for me to realize that is wasn"t God"s intention to take my love from me, just to separate us for a span of his time. By my forgiveness of the lack of "my" miracle, I was able to open my heart to joy again, to his memorys again and to the life I spent with him, instead of all the pain of the illness we went through. People are going to say some really stupid stuff to you in the next coming days, the one that made me the maddest was "how are you doing?" I wanted to reinact the scene from Steele Magnolias and just scream at them that "I am fine, but my love is not, he is dead, he can"t see the sunshine or smell the rain...but I am fine!!! I didn"t ever say those words to anyone, but I sure thought them many times. As a promise from a fellow sufferer, it does get better, but it never goes away. Allow God back in the front of your heart as you and Mallory will certainly meet again and the next time will be for eternity, not just a few short years.
I am praying for your family.
Blessings
Debbie
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